here I go. I guess...

I should feel sad, scared, excited, nervous, what have you but all there is seems to be numbness. quiet and calm. like before a storm. the storm I should have had weeks ago but never hit. does it loom, growing all this time? we shall see I suppose. but I am grateful for the unsaid easiness in each of you held tight in my mind and heart. thank you world for the warm sun, cava, laughs, connections, warm bodies, voices, melodies, chocolate, bread, understanding, uniquness, reasons good enough to not sleep.