contentment tonight

And the team lost tonight in a double overtime. It reminds me of all the times I lost when I should have won. The sneaking bombs in late night calls. The lovers incapable of doing anything more than making love. The handsome devils lurking behind the bars, pouring double vodkas when all I ordered was a single. And the pain that awakes you before your early morning job. My bed is cold tonight and I am smarter than bright. I am in love, in love with my life. And incapable of giving it up for something anything less than then better than this. It took me weeks, days, and many math equations to figure out the whole of my sum. And even though I may be fading, another winter wear on the skin. At least I am another winter braver in my soul. And at the very least I have no insomnia this winter. I am sleeping like a hibernating baby bear. I will know what I think and feel what I feel. Wait for this all to move to the next level. Say what I say and find the flaws of the world. Lovers hidden in martins, dinner, movies, and sad songs I fall asleep to. So long as the river keeps flowing and the streets stay clear.